Remember When?

Remember when we were so young?

We would be at the park with our mothers and our childhood friends. And we would see the big kids laughing with there friends and just sit there admiring them. Scrutinizing everything they did
with adoration and unusual fear but couldn't wait till we were like them.They looked so cool standing there.They didn't have there mothers with them.They could do it all on there own.They had it all figured out. That's what we thought.We couldn't wait to grow up and be one of those kids.Little did we know.

Those big kids were confused.

Just like we are now.

Too bad we figured that out too late.

Their friends?There was at least two people that secretly hated each other.They may have been mad at each other.Sure, they look like there having  the times of there lives,but teenagers are good lies.Its all fake.All those smiles don't mean much.

Each one of those 'big kids' had something going on.

They all had secrets they were hiding.

They all had a burden.

Do you remember that girl with the beautiful long black hair.Did you notice how she has a long sleeved shirt on when everyone else had t-shirts on? That's because her insecurities lead her to harming herself.

How bout that boy wearing the Abrecrombie and Fitch? He is pressurized to keep the wealthy,happy look for the reputation of his father.Or the girl who has one earphone in her ear occasionally laughing at something the guys say? Her parents are going through a divorce and she wants to be as far away from home as possible.Did you look twice at the girl with the ripped jeans? If you notice properly, they weren't bought ripped.She wears them everyday,not because she loves them-like says- but because there the only pair of jeans she has.The only pair of trousers she has because her parents are already working all week in three jobs.

And lastly,the genuinely happy girl

Shes not so happy though 

because they all tell her 

all there burdens

And we were clueless to this.There happy facade fooling us.
Remember when your mother was at work?And your babysitter was downstairs making you lunch.And you sneaked into your mothers room and took out her pair of red heels. You put them on and felt like a princess.Like your beautiful mother.Thing is, your mother had those heels on when she got fired last week. That's why she had them hidden deep deep down into the closet,because they remind her of the job she lost.Of the money she wouldn't be able to collect for you.
Or how bout that day you broke the beautiful glass candle holder that was on the table and your mum yelled at you?You started crying and then she hugged you and apologized.

That was because your father bought her that on there anniversary.

And she was upset because your father can't buy her anymore of them.

Unless there from heaven

And we couldn't wait to grow up.But now that we did, we'd do anything just to go back.

xx

S.Z

That One

S.Z

xxx

That girl
that stayed over
all night
watching movies
and getting
masks done

And the one
that
texted me
in the room
when she
was sitting across me
because she was
too lazy to
talk

And the one

that played

video games 

with me 

untill my 

mum threatened 

to snap the CD in half

And the one

that screamed

with me

when there was a spider

at the corner

of the room

And the one

that was

always there

offering me

a hug

when i needed it

wouldn't even 

smile

at me anymore

xxx

S.Z

A Women's Heart Is A Deep Ocean Full Of Secrets- Rose,Titanic

S.Z

xxx

I recently watched the Titanic again and cried a bucketful,as usual.But this particular quote really stuck in my head and touched me.It is so true and exact that it amazes me.A women's heart is the most beautiful thing.Its kind no matter how mean the mind makes it be.Its generous and giving.It is fragile and delicate.It can be broken by the simplest of words yet it gives itself away all the time. 

You see a women's heart is more then a body part that keeps her alive.Its a piece of her she sacrifices when she meets that one special guy.Or maybe guys.but that's not the case.It knows it may be in danger,the guy might cheat on you,he might play you or worse,tell you he loves you when he doesn't and you believe him. 

Guard your heart ladies.It may be already bandaged up from the numerous breakups and heartaches but don't let it go astray.Listen to it because its always right.Your heart is a surviver. Its full of memories and secrets.Its burdened by the tragedies that happened to you.Yet it stays quiet and secret.Your heart,is fragile and delicate.Guard it.Don't throw it away to any guy you see.

And it's sad to say,I learnt that the hard way.

And so did Rose.

xxx

S.Z

Introduction

S.Z

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I am an aspiring teenage writer.

I have a very wide imagination.

I am quite unextraordinary but I would love to do something meaningful with my linguistics.

I have confident,powerful views on certain things. 

I am a generally optimistic person who always looks for the bright side of things.

 I am very reliant on my friends and my biggest fear is to be alone.

I love photography.

Its my alternative to writing. 

I have a broad variety of ideas running through my mind all at once.

I am different in the way that I don't let the media dictate my thoughts

or the way i'm supposed to dress.

I am an active person who always has an opinion on something.

I love languages and love to meet new people

I am not a judgmental person

I am quite open minded and a good listener

I hope you like my writing.

xx

S.Z