Remember When?

Remember when we were so young?

We would be at the park with our mothers and our childhood friends. And we would see the big kids laughing with there friends and just sit there admiring them. Scrutinizing everything they did
with adoration and unusual fear but couldn't wait till we were like them.They looked so cool standing there.They didn't have there mothers with them.They could do it all on there own.They had it all figured out. That's what we thought.We couldn't wait to grow up and be one of those kids.Little did we know.

Those big kids were confused.

Just like we are now.

Too bad we figured that out too late.

Their friends?There was at least two people that secretly hated each other.They may have been mad at each other.Sure, they look like there having  the times of there lives,but teenagers are good lies.Its all fake.All those smiles don't mean much.

Each one of those 'big kids' had something going on.

They all had secrets they were hiding.

They all had a burden.

Do you remember that girl with the beautiful long black hair.Did you notice how she has a long sleeved shirt on when everyone else had t-shirts on? That's because her insecurities lead her to harming herself.

How bout that boy wearing the Abrecrombie and Fitch? He is pressurized to keep the wealthy,happy look for the reputation of his father.Or the girl who has one earphone in her ear occasionally laughing at something the guys say? Her parents are going through a divorce and she wants to be as far away from home as possible.Did you look twice at the girl with the ripped jeans? If you notice properly, they weren't bought ripped.She wears them everyday,not because she loves them-like says- but because there the only pair of jeans she has.The only pair of trousers she has because her parents are already working all week in three jobs.

And lastly,the genuinely happy girl

Shes not so happy though 

because they all tell her 

all there burdens

And we were clueless to this.There happy facade fooling us.
Remember when your mother was at work?And your babysitter was downstairs making you lunch.And you sneaked into your mothers room and took out her pair of red heels. You put them on and felt like a princess.Like your beautiful mother.Thing is, your mother had those heels on when she got fired last week. That's why she had them hidden deep deep down into the closet,because they remind her of the job she lost.Of the money she wouldn't be able to collect for you.
Or how bout that day you broke the beautiful glass candle holder that was on the table and your mum yelled at you?You started crying and then she hugged you and apologized.

That was because your father bought her that on there anniversary.

And she was upset because your father can't buy her anymore of them.

Unless there from heaven

And we couldn't wait to grow up.But now that we did, we'd do anything just to go back.

xx

S.Z